WHERE DID HE GO? Free as wind was he, Like a souring kite was he, Where did he go , let’s find him... ******* $$$$$ ****** I was lead by the path I took, While he carved a path of his own, Stumbling, rising carefree walked he, He fretted about the morrow, He simply revealed in today, Living each moment to the fullest ******* $$$ ******* Where did he come from, He who touched my broken heart and vanished, Where did he go,...let’s find him, In the scorching sun, he was like a patch of shade, In an endless desert, like an Oasis, On my bruised heart, like a soothing balm was he, ****** $$$$$ ******** Afraid, I stayed confined in the well, Fearless, he frolicked in the river, Never hesitating to swim against the tide, and yet my hand he held, He wandered lonesome as a cloud, Yet, he was my dearest friend, Where did he go,.....let’s find him ****** $$$$$ ****** He who touched my soul and vanished, He who that my heart longs to see one more time, He who let me in without a second thought, Even as the stranger I was, like an angel was he , He who my heart desires, for his kindness is infinite, Blessed be his name but still, my question remains, Where did he go,.....let’s find him

YOU CAST THE FIRST STONE? Brother, ? Should I even call you that? What has become of you? Why do you itch to shame me? Why do your hands waver hastily to reach my garment? Why do salivate while I pass by? Aren’t we supposed to be siblings, loving ones for that matter? Why do my heart and mind fear the worst when we cross paths in the streets? Why should my sour heart dread making eye contact with you? My Questions run deep, and my tears stop not to trickle down in heavy drops. Until when should we live in fear? Why is it that you choose to be my foe while you should be the one protecting me? Where should I run and to whom then, if you are the first to strike me with a stone across my face? Shouldn’t you be the one bringing our brothers together and letting them know that none of us is perfect ? Why do I witness your hungry eyes and hands long to do me harm? Aren’t we supposed to be giving one another a hand and especially in rough times? Why do you bring hot burning tears of humiliation and violation to my eyes? Why do you take pleasure in reducing me to nothing? Brother, you have no right to do what you did to me, I feel humiliated, sour, angry, actually, I have no word left to describe how I feel about your betrayal today. I have lost faith in you , I have none left, because you have given me no reason at all to trust you. The countless times you harass me as we cross paths, you don’t forget to make your presence noticed, while in the first place I was busy minding my own business. The way you never tire to irritate me with senseless comments that sicken my eardrums. When are you planning on giving it a rest? I am tired of your flaws. They are of infinite count. So , take five and tell me, now that you are busy pointing your judgemental finger at me, remind me why you shamelessly raped your 85 year old grandmother the other day? Tell me why you, without a second thought, heartlessly violated that innocent 6 month old niece of yours? Will you sit comfortably and tell me that they were dressed indecently too? Will you speak out loud and claim that the old woman was showing off her wrinkled thighs? If that’s not the case then, what defence would you possibly present to me, for I truly would like to understand what happened to you, if it’s not the evil one whispering to your ear. Need I remind you the many times, however decent I’d dressed up, the other day for instance you grabbed my breast, and then two fortnights later, you went ahead and grabbed my behind? What is it that we need to wear now, like Muslims? Didn’t someone confess that you harassed a Muslim woman the other day too whilst she was still fully covered? And yet, nothing stopped you from humiliating and assaulting her and using vulgar language? What excuse will you give for that? What do we need to do to be heard? What will it take for someone to take action? How many will write, for our voice to be heard? Should I go ahead and break somebody’s nose for me to be heard, scream my lungs out may be, or should I go to the wilderness like John the Baptist to be heard? What will it take? What has gotten into you? You used to be so cool back in the 60s ,remember ? Back in the day when our mothers wore whatever they pleased, and our fathers were so cool and calm about it. When they even used to go to discos that allowed intimacy to a certain lever, and yet they respected them plus the rules and highly so! Good old days! What kind of perversion has gotten in to you that not even a mentally ill person would stop you from doing that horrific act without a second thought? Has the devil become the ruler of your mind and soul that now you have lost all sense? An infant, really ? What triggered your tremendous animosity there, was it the dipper she was in, oh wait, let me take a wild guess, it must have been her small toothless mouth that awakened your demons, right? I don’t think so!! Let me set a record straight with you, I don’t think anything is pulling your triggers for you, it’s your perverted, rotten brain that is doing all the dirty job for you in handy with the devil. Those two, are the recipe of disaster. Needless to say, my sister from another mother went home naked the other day because you were very quick to judge her. You didn’t even hesitate to weigh your options and think about the consequences. You did not bother to ask yourself were you in her shoe, how you would feel. Why should you be the one to cast the first stone at her? Not even Jesus did, as a matter of fact, if you took a second and turned your face to a bible other than what she was wearing, you would have noticed that He protected the prostitute who was brought to him. What right did you have, or it was just your rotten brain telling you that you were justified? You sicken my already restless heart, and it’s my hope that you who took part in humiliating her, the heavens may give you exactly what you deserve. Times when our forefathers said that we would turn on each other and we just blushed them off are here. They are not just old sayings anymore. They are happening right in front of our eyes. It puts my congested heart in more pain and shutters of a million pieces and as my heart goes out to that sister of mine, I think it’s time we, and I speak for all people who are with me on this disturbing issue of harassment, took a stand and said, ‘’It’s no more.” We have to stand together and refuse to be harassed and taken advantage of. Otherwise, my fellow sisters, daughters, mothers, aunts , grandmothers, you and I both know, yesterday it was her who went home broken, who knows when their turn will be? And the more we let them be, the more we stay quiet buried in fear, the more we allow them to keep stepping on our toes ,yet we air nothing, the more these hogs will keep misusing our rights. I strongly think that it’s time we put our feet on the ground and put up a fight, and stand for ourselves. So that our children’s future may be safe and that we may be remembered by friends and foe alike!

MY COUNTRY , MY HURTING MOTHER.

whatever happened to our blessed country Kenya, more so, whatever happened to her children. Why does she keep deteriorating every single day? She has become so peaceless ,so restless, she is bleeding all over and there is no one to treat her wounds!! And even before she has healed, another wound is inflicted on her! I can't help but ask all these painful questions.Her children have no peace.They can't go a single minute without worrying about what nasty thing happens next. My litany of questions so long. Will greed of power cost her all her achievements? Won't someone come her aid?? Why can't some of her children accept defeat. Why can't they realize that what they r doing is wrong? Why won't they realize that if something is NOT meant to be, should be left at that? How much more blood of innocent people r they willing to sacrifice? Have they forgotten that the Heavens are watching? Have they forgotten that karma, never lets go ? Do they not realize that one day they will pay the price of pouring innocent blood and especially that of little children? My sour heart goes out to her. I feel her pain, I share her pain for she is my motherland. How I wish there was something I could do, to restore her peace.So that we may keep enjoying her blessings! So that we can keep leaping her fruits! I keep wondering, did the boys have to fight? Did they have to want so very badly what they did not inherit? How big is their greed if I may? When are they planning to stop? When our mother Kenya has rivers of blood flowing? When she stinks of raw blood? When she has been burnt to ashes? When a heavy cloud of sorrow overcomes her? When she has become too weak to stand, is that it? Or will it be when she has a million mass graves for she has lost all that she called her own?? Why can't we her children remain in unity?? Did anyone tell them what unity can do for a people? That oneness, working towards one goa, that of growth!! That of love and not hate. What more can I say to make them change their minds?? So that we may all have the happily ever after we have all wished for. So that our children's children with have a place to call home. But how shall they do that if we keep hurting each other whilst we still belong to one mother? Will they not follow into our footsteps?? Won't they just do what their forefathers did? How I wish we could just come together, hold hands and show our unity, show love for one another, get off our high horses and pray together for our mother Kenya. We can't just sit here and watch her perish. We have to act on saving her. I can't explain how saddened I am, how my heart bleed for my country. It is with a heavy heart that I watch her suffer. But all is not lost, because if we all agreed to come together, fasted and prayed for her, its my solemn believe that she will heal. That she will come out of this a victor, and the evil one will walk away ashamed and defeated.My fellow brothers and sisters, a little help,will you?

EMBRACE IT,VALUE IT!!

Did u you ever,even once in your life take a moment to admire or say a silent "thank you" to the heavens for granting you whatever you have in your life?? Well,honestly the other day and that day since,I make a point of doing so because now I know better. How do I know its important?? It was a life lesson I had the other day. Through a collegue of mine. She is one blessed lady.From anybody who knows her like I do, I would almost wish to be her. I know, I don't want to be her, but heavens she is lucky.From what I have seen, she literally has the perfect life.But what made my heart sink was the fact that I caught her flirting with some guy, who mind you, was nowhere close to her Kyle. The kyle i know so damn well.I really got pissed off!! And it got me asking myself all these endless questions. How could she? What was wrong with her brain?? I felt like I could explode. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't any of my business, but I felt really bad. She has it all,and she felt that she still needed more.Did I tell you that my lady friend had the kindest of men on the planet.This guy I would swear was heaven sent.He's the type of people who r so down to earth,always there to give a hand, and yes he has broken the all records. She gets whatever she wants from him. He has never said a no to him...Then, why in her right mind mind do such an uncouth thing to him. He would be crushed if he heard of it.hey I know my place so I didn't tell. Back to what I was saying, so she could never complain about nothing. Her house so big and perfect, she drives the latest of brands, and by that i mean cars. Her kids so adorable and she's got a awesome job.So I will repeat,she has it all.At that very moment I felt this tight knot in my chest when I recalled her telling me that they had planned on going for a family vacation in a month's time. And I couldn't help but wonder,didn't guilt chew her up inside?? Didn't she feel the slightest remorse?? I just didn't get it. I was so mad I almost shed a tear.The fact that she had the fairy tale I have always wished for and she didn't see it or more so value it,broke me. You know when people say we don't value what we have until we loose it?? She came to work two days ago red-eyed, she smelt of booze.She was a mess. She was very sad,so she came to me telling me that she was busted by her husband for cheating. Trust me it wasn't me. I didn't do it!! But life, life is full of lessons.So I was sad for her, but I couldn't help but feel a slight pinch of happiness. Am no sadist, but somewhat I think it served her right. She deserved it. She needed to know.She needed to experience how it felt like to loose. For the many many times I had warned her, I think it went through one ear,out the other. She lost everything just because she wanted more, just because she didn't see what she had. And now it was all gone.Her husband was so mad that he took everything from her, asked for divorce and to make it all worse, he was fighting for the custody of the kids. She lost it all,what for?? For wanting to be a "Mrs- know -it-all ?? Well am not sure if I was in her shoes I would have done the same stupidity, but after this, I think I know better. I love what I have, however little it is, I love it just as it is. I will forever value it.You should too my beloved.

FRIENDS

Friends are like flowers. Flowers of different kinds. Some are genuinely beautiful,others make appearances,some have thorns,some sting and stink,but most have beautiful irresistible scents. Like flowers,some of the friend that we attain in life,have our best interest at heart They mean good and they would do just about anything to prove how much your friendship mean.They even go out of their way to make sure that their friends are okay. I really appreciate the few good friends of this category.Bravo to them I say. There is this other group of "friends" and I quote that, that you wouldn't really call friends you know, they are more of acquaintances. There are there either because they want to use you,or they want something.The kind that you can never trust whatsoever. The kind that any sane human being should keep an open eye for,and the kind that should be avoided.Its the kind of persons that if accidentally gave u a hand,you should wait for press for an interview!! You know what they say, two can keep a secret if one of them is dead.Well, I mean if there was dirty secrets involved,the victim pays in the long run. Now, there is this type of "friends" that we are all afraid of. And sometimes,no scratch that,most of the time I wish we could read minds to just be able to identify this kind of elite. I call it " frienemies". These people , or should I say "friends", In their own crooked ways believe in that theory,you know, where they keep their friends close and their enemies closer.Let me do the good deed and enlighten you about these foreign things. You are most welcome.Am sure you didn't have the slightest clue what I was talking about..BTW, am not gloating,just sharing info with you my beloved. Sorry,I didn't mean to get caught up in that.So as I was saying, they keep you next to their stinking armpits. They monitor your every move,trust me when I say if it was possible,they can bug you!! The people you hang around ,your other friend,whatever it is that you do,etc,etc.Let me be honest with you here, as I have come to learn through my own experience,most of the time,they are the quickest to "support" you but from the negative side of it.Whatever you do or say will never be good enough for them. They want whatever they tell you, goes. And to make it all worse, they make sure that they deliberately mislead you. Believe you me, they are very clever,they calculate their every move,they are manipulative bi$#**$!! Yep I said it,n I don't regret it one bit. They are there bossing you around, stepping on your head.Always there doing there dirty work,and you have to bend their way and they will never warn you when a storm is coming.I don't get it,how desperate can one be to stick around for such crap?? I swear everyday, that I would rather be lonely and friendless forever, than to be around such kind of people. Well, after all is said, they say that experience is the best teacher, So I want to take this multi- million dollar chance that I got, to warn my friends,the few good,the golden champions out there,please keep an open eye at all times.Keep it even wider for those who wants to be close to you.You never know which one turns out be the pretending hyena. Be it at home,work,the church that you attend,name them. Our so called frienemies are around us, among us and we may be so engrossed in being "friend" we don't even realize when they betray our friendship until it hits you hard in the ass!! I mean the betrayal. Watch out.

FATHER,WHY??

Father, what did you do? That is the very question that comes into my mind every time I look at my family's misfortunes. What did we do to get this kind of treatment from you? I know if you were to answer me these endless questions you would tell me," my child, I was doing only what I thought was best. I wanted to better your lives." True,I figured as much father and I truly thank you for your concern and that was thoughtful of you.ALMOST. You refused to think of the consequences though. I don't mean to be rude and with all due respect father karma is a bitch. It hits back come rain come sunshine. Look at us, all of us,we bounce back and forth and we haven't really made anything out of our lives. We have nothing to call our own, For some of us education was cut short because off your don't care attitude. Everything you "built" came crumbling down right in front of our eyes.Literally I should say. I don't mean to compare lives father, but your position,were you a good and genuine judge of things, I know that we,all of us would be like a fairytale. But what did you do??, You always wanted things to go your way,which ruined even the little good that mum had built. You forgot what they say,"easy come easy go." Need I remind you father how many times we have missed family vacations,the many times you have told us lies because of your ignorance? Yes,I know, I'm of age now and I can take care of myself. Believe me, this is not for my sake,but for the sake of those behind me. How I wish you would stop living in Eutopia and for once in your life,come back and face reality head on.BTW, for your info, you took theirs and now we have to pay.Your past has come back to bite us in the behind. We your children are going to pay and who knows when they are gonna let go?? Maybe even your great grand children will have to suffer the consequences.How I wish there was a way to break this bondage that we are in. These chains that have chained us so tight its hard to breath. It surely feels like a curse and with it hanging around we can never make it. Father,I personally have dreams of my own that I want to accomplish but in these chains,its not very possible. Its with a heavy heart that I put this on writing. Please father,do try and make it right.Its the only way you will set us free.Better still,return what you took from,them sooner before its too late and before the burden gets any heavier. Still though,I can't help but wonder,was this our path? Is this how our lives were planned out? Was it written that way,that we shall pass through the thickest of routes but so disguised? A thousand questions I have,they are endless, they remain unanswered. What if you chose not to live in Eutopia?, would our lives have been may be, just may be a little bit easier?? Would our burdens have been a bit lighter to bear and carry? Father,were you to give me a chance to ask you all these ugly questions,would you answer me with reason,honesty and most importantly truth?? I don't have the courage to face you with all these giant questions that make my heart bleed,my chest congested with tight knots. But were you given another chance to start over,afresh,would you try and right the wrongs that have chained us for the longest time now?? Father, time isn't on our side. How I wish you would wake up one day and realize just how wrong you have been, how much you've ruined many people's lives,how heavy their hearts are for the mistakes you committed and refused to right. I hate to know that I can't face you father and question you,more so tell you for we both know how such conversations end.But everything happens with a reason, we the victims have learned the hard way.ore importantly,we know better than to take what isn't rightfully ours. How I wish I could share my story with some of the people I see everyday "take" what that doesn't belong to them without care,or even by force.If only they know how sadly that ends! Yep,I repeat, that put us in deep shit as much as it wasn't a direct misdoing.It affected us all equally. And as the good book says," I will pass my anger and revenge from one generation to the next and the next. Ok, I might have exaggerated a bit there..but am putting this very point across for a reason. So believe me when I say that those aren't just mere writings on the Holy book, they do come to pass.Ask me ,I know just how much!! For the many years we have gone through that rough patch,I have learned a very important lesson, that greed,pride and ego are the worst vices a human being would want to hold on to. They are a bad combination and they chew you up and when you realize it, its always too late. And money,don't get me started on that one. Its the devil himself. Word of advise to anyone who might be reading this,please,for your own sake,if you ever felt the urge to "take", think of running...far away and don't bother looking back. Trust me , it works!!!

A SECOND CHANCE

Euripides once said,"waste no tears over the grieves of yesterday." I thought to myself,right!,easier said than done. But then as I woke up today,I felt lighter,an inner peace that I couldn't explain. A sign of hope,a new dawn. Even though my yesterday seemed pitch black, today I woke up with a new attitude,that of hope.I thought it won't cost me a dime smiling again.I hope that I would find something new to rekindle my long lost hope..ans I waited and against all odds,I decided that I would keep fighting,I will have to keep pushing for there isn't nobody else but me to this. I took my chances and went out there hoping to find myself something new.I asked the heavens to guide me..oh and yes,It did...The reason why am detailing all this, is the fact that if yesterday anyone would have told me that I would have a better "tomorrow, I would have sworn they have gone mental!! And yes,I will give myself a little credit for this.I feel like I have a second chance here,like there is something good coming my way. And as the good old Abraham Lincoln said," success is going from failure to failure without loosing your enthusiasm. I have failed in the past,but yes there is always hope.Better yet,they say they patience is genius,yes???